Testing…1,2…check, check…1,2,3
Is this thing on?
(Clearing of throat) Well hello faithful readers. How are you? Some time has passed since we last touched base. I take full responsibility for that as things got pretty funky for me for a bit and I wasn’t really in a writing sort of mood. But I am here now, and if Kanye West is to be believed, I must be stronger because I’m not dead yet.
Look, I live a pretty peachy life; whether you call it luck, a blessing, or good karma, things just tend to go my way a lot. The only hitch is what my father refers to as the Ten Year Curse. It seems I have inherited his unfortunate habit of living nine really great, lucky years and then having one year that is just shit. And in case you missed it: 2008 is my shit year (1998, also bad).
Unfortunately, I haven’t handled it as gracefully as I could have; which means I wasn't handling it at all. I was steadfastly pretending that nothing was even wrong (I had a good view of the pyramids and water up to my knees I was so far in da Nile). I kept super busy with travel, baseball, alcohol by the pool, fluffy summer novels, mastering the Rubik's Cube, playing with boys, and four whole seasons of Weeds on DVD. Basically I was trying to keep busy so I could avoid thinking and continue the whole denial game I was playing with myself. (This is also why I have not written anything of late. Writing would have required that I spend some time analyzing the thoughts that I was trying so hard to ignore.) Just picture me with my fingers in my ears going, "La, la, la...I can't hear you."
Long story short: bottom has been hit, light at the end of the tunnel, back with a vengeance, etc.
Sorry to those I have been ignoring and to those I made worry. All is not completely well today, but it will be soon (just get me safely out of 2008 and into 2009, please!). I have a plan for my life going forward. It isn’t fleshed out very well yet, but it’s a good, solid, two-step plan:
1. Move back to the city I love.
2. Go back to school and find a career I will love.
Piece of cake, right? Two steps to achieve lifelong happiness (or at least happiness until 2018…). I also owe lots of thanks to those who have been patiently putting up with the messy me. You all know who you are. Love.
101 Things to do (or don't) before you die - #46:
Do scuba dive.
Don't use pointless precision.
- lada has to stopped looking at the snapshots of her life and is now focusing on the movie
P.S. I apologize in advance to Sweet Lou, DeRo, Geo, The Riot, Big Z, et al. in case my unlucky 2008 blows it for the entire North Side.
Monday, September 22, 2008
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